Help

Just sitting here in the learning center at Ridgewood Elementry, aka, my work! lol. I spend every morning and every afternoon at this school. Some times, i jut want to be able to not come in for work, or take a day off. I usually go down every wednesday night after work to Heritage Weslyn Church, to see my best friend Kael for a little while before I go to my church, Edgewood Baptist, for awana. Well tonight im Super excited!! Because i get to go down and stay all night! For the whole service! I havent been able to stay for a whole night in months, since i started working, and then awana at my church! So that makes me happy! Kael is just amazing, I have known him for: 1 year, 2 months, and 3 weeks tomorrow! We have came through Alot together and we know that it was only by God that we are in each others lives. Im so proud of him! Ive watched him grow soo much in the past year! Everything he does is for God! He is constantly doing things that are pleasing to God. He is so involved with his church now, and the people in it. He is a middle school leader, he drums for the service wednesday nights(sometimes sundays), he prays for the kids everyday. I could keep going, but im not going to, lol. He is a leader, and others look up to him, and he looks to God :) I know that kael will only continue to grow closer to God, and he will be wonderful things for Him. And im blessed to be able to witness it all.
I guess that my one wish, or goal in life, is to of course, live a life that is pleasing to God, but to also leave a legacy. How will people remember me? I want to be the person you can come to. Whether that be to just listen, or for advice. I want people to know that when they come to me, i will have my arms and ears open. I love people, and even more, i love helping people. When i help people, it doesnt even feel like its me, I have the feeling of something helping me with my adivce, or counsle. Its the holy spirit flowing through me, i know it! God gave me a passion for people! And a passion for whats going on in their lives. If there is any way i can help someone, i take that oppurtunitey and go for it! I want to help them see God, and the good that can come from a bad situation. I want to be that light in the dark for them. I pray that to God, to put people in my life that i can have a good influence on. That means that i also pray for wisdom. So when im giving advice, i know what God would say. I dont like the attention on me to begin with, so the fact that i have a heart for people, helps me focus on them and their issues, and not on mine. That isnt always the best way to deal with things, but as long as i get to help others, im happy! So i guess, when i pray to God, I just say, that I want Him to use me, whatever he wants me to do, Ill do it. I want him to continue bringing people into my life for me to help. Help me shine for Him, even if its hard... I love God with all my heart! He has control of all of me! And is the best feeling ever! I cant wait till Heaven!